Happy Valentine's Day

I hope everyone has a great heart day! In the Valentine's Day spirit, I thought I'd write about some of the things I love right now. First off, I have to write about my lunch yesterday with Jason. Jason is one of our best friends and one of those people who goes out of his way to do something special for others. Yesterday, he took me and Inara to Downtown Disney so he could make Inara a special going away doll at Build a Bear. Just the thought was super sweet. And he was such a trooper and did all the fun little things they make you do when getting a doll there. In case you've never gone, when stuffing the doll, you pick out a heart to put inside but before hand they have you hold it to your head so the animal is smart, your tummy so the animal doesn't go hungry, your legs so the animal is a good dancer, and then you kiss it and make a wish. It sounds kind of silly, but I love Build a Bear. Although we first thought of getting a monkey since Jason is nicknamed Monkeyboy, instead we picked out the turtle because it's super cute and come to find out Jason used to have turtles when he was younger. I also loved that its shell is a backpack. So adorable. He then picked out a beating heart so that when Inara hugs it she will be able to feel the little heart beat. And of course, we had to get clothes for the turtle that make him look like Jason: a black pinstriped vest with a white shirt, jeans, and black converse. We couldn't find glasses that looked like the ones Jason wears, but later he called me to say his mom found some, so the outfit is now complete. He then named it Jason T. Turtle. He's such a good uncle and an awesome friend. Afterwards, he treated me to lunch and we hung out for a bit. Then on my way home emotions got the best of me and I broke down and started crying. I called Shawn and told him I can't move any more. I hate leaving family and friends and we truly have the best friends in the world. It's days like yesterday that remind me just how hard this move is going to be because of all the awesome people we are leaving behind. It sucks! I just wish I could convince everyone to pack up and move with us. Maybe someday. I know Saturday will be hard because our friends are throwing us a going away party at Jason's condo complex. It will be a rough day but also fantastic in that we get to see everyone one last time before heading to Colorado. I can't say it enough: we have the best friends in the whole wide world!!!

Another thing I really love right now is watching old Gilmore Girls episodes. I had a little breakdown the other day when I was feeding Inara and watching the episode where Rory gets accepted to Yale, Harvard and Princeton. The sheer enthusiasm from her grandparents when she tells them she's chosen Yale is so totally sweet that I started crying. I looked down at my adorable daughter and said, "Sweet Pea, you can go to any college you want to because I want you to have the best life possible." When Shawn got home that night, I told him about my little cry fest and he about had a heart attack at the slightest thought of having to pay for tuition to any Ivy League school. I said, "But honey, it's our daughter." He replied, "Yea, well she better get a full ride." I say we can probably get a chunk of change if we sold an organ or two. Hee hee! Then the other episode that made me cry yesterday (yes, I had a rough one yesterday) was when Rory gives her valedictorian speech at graduation and thanks her grandparents for being the pillars in her life and her mom for being her best friend and introducing her to the important literary figures in her life. She then said that the one person she would want to be someday was her mother. Of course, that made me cry because I now have a daughter and I want to have a close relationship with Inara as Rory does with her mom and I do with my mom. And then I cried even harder because I'm moving away from my mom and that's sooo hard for me to think about. She's one of the most important people in my life and I won't be able to see her whenever I want. And that just sucks!!!

And one last thing I love...Shawn and Inara. I am so grateful for the family we have started. Everyday I am home with Inara I think how lucky I am to have an amazing daughter and a phenomenal husband. I thank the stars every day for bringing these two people into my life. They are my reason for getting up every morning and the last two people I get to kiss good night. Happy Valentine's Day Shawn and Inara and everyone else in my life!!!