It's nights like these that make me feel like I know what I'm doing

Inara's sleeping schedule seems to be pretty irregular lately. It might be because she's walking so much, because she's teething, because she's simply getting older. It used to be super easy to put her to bed every night. Lately, it's been a roller coaster ride. Some nights she's pooped and goes to sleep with the greatest of ease. Other nights we seem to struggle for an hour. I've been thinking that maybe she's hungry and we should feed her a bottle before bed because she does eat dinner at 5:30 and doesn't wake up until 6:30am. With her increased daily activity, I can only imagine the poor thing being more hungry. Tonight Shawn tried to put her to sleep the first couple of times. She seemed to want absolutely nothing to do with it. I was downstairs in the kitchen, so I went ahead and made her a small bottle. When she saw me come upstairs with the baba, she tried crawling over Shawn to get to me. So I took her back in her room, sat in the rocking chair, and fed her the bottle just like old times. She laid in my arms so peacefully and comfortably. We rocked and listened to a little Jack Johnson. Before I knew it, my little girl was fast asleep in my arms. It reminded me of when she was just born and how she'd fall asleep in my arms after I'd breastfeed her. I actually miss those days of her liking being rocked. To truly let the moment sink in, she and I just rocked together for a few songs. I even lifted her over my shoulder so I could burp her. There is nothing more special at this age than having her nestled closely in the crook of my neck, snoring away in total peace. Boy did that feel good. I actually felt like I knew what I was doing. It's moments like this that make me think I'm getting the hang of this whole mommy business. I know tomorrow she'll throw me a curveball though and I'll find myself wondering what that all means and I'll be back to square one trying to figure out what I'm doing as this adorable baby's mommy. But for tonight I'll revel in my triumph. Good night sweet pea!